I wish life came with an instruction manual or at the very least one of those old choose your own adventure books. At least that way you could look at the outcome before you made mistakes that could set you back from becoming who you really are.
But I guess that is my true problem, I have no idea who I really am. Sure I could list the things I like,I could tell you my accomplishments or my failures. I could be defined that I am a divorced, just recently turned 40, mother of two, that has no idea where my life is going.
Sure I have good things in life, but I have looked at the bad for so long my judgement has become cloudy. It is difficult to pull yourself out of your self doubts and negative attitude when life keeps throwing you to the ground and taunting you to get up again. But I do get up again, each time. Sometimes slower than others, but I am still here, still fighting, still trying to get it right.
This world has become a terrifying place, and not just because of all the violence and natural disasters, but because human kind in itself is a mess. We have forgotten balance, basic manners, and genuinely  how to be nice to each other.
Most of the population is concerned only with itself, how to make the most money, be the most popular, have the most things, have the most sought after opinions.
So how do we navigate through that? How do we become our authentic selves? How to we be ok just being own weird unique human, when the world keeps telling us we need to be like or better than everyone else.
That's my journey. To be ok being the best me I can be. To like the things I like, because they bring me joy, to be happy for others not jealous or envious. To live my life to its fullest, instead of hiding because I feel I am not good enough.
I know I could only be ever talking to myself, it doesn't matter. I am getting the words out of my head and giving them to the universe. They may not always make the most sense, and more than likely be random and take off in weird directions, but so be it. Let them fly and be free. I am choosing my own adventure with out looking at the ending. Taking it day by day, page by page, word by word. Writing my own instruction manual... but keeping the white out handy because mistakes will always be part of the journey!